ily, h ♥

Well, hello thereeeeeeeeee! you know what? I've just graduted from matric 😁 Omgggg it was a hellllllaa ride of roller coaster but alhamdulillah i survived 😔 but wait this isnt my main topic actually hahahhahah 😝 But just by looking at the title, you'd know the root of the story right? 

So yeahhhh, it's about himmm 🙈 It's been nearly 5 months i'm with him and throughout tht time, it has been amazing! Idk smh i just love him a lot. Hmmmm yeahhh thats my problem, i love too much and one day it might kills me. 

If you've read my post before, then you know a little about him. Yeahhh even until now, i still feel insecure when i'm with him because i know me well. I dont even suit his choices haihhhh. But you know what, he still accept me with alllll my flaws 😓 and thats what i like a bout him. 

Hmmm i mean look at me, I have nothing, like literally NOTHING while he has everything that every girls want. I mean yeah, he's not a smoker, he's a veryyyyyy kind guy, never gets angry which is kind of weird but tht what makes him special to me, always encourage people to do good things and the most important things, tak tinggal solat alhamdulillahhhhh 🙈 

If you were me, would you ever waste someone like him? But uhmmm sometimes i take him for granted 😩 yeahh dah la tak pernah marah, tak pernah nak tinggi suara and sampai i've reached to the point where i try to make him commit those things. Bcs i've read somewhere i dont remember, ada orang cakap kalau lelaki tengah marah, apa yang keluar dari mulut dia tu, semua betul. I kinda agreed with the statement bcs yeahhh i've met a lot of guys yang macamtu. 

So i tested him a litte. So far no matter what i've did to him, he'll ended up apologizing over things that i've created anndddd yang ni yang i lemah gila like omggggg so my type of guy 😻 Selama i buat all that, dia mengalah je and yeahhh ada la rasa macam tak puas hati so i kept on teasing him until one time, he just cant take it anymore. He pointed out what i did to him sepanjang dengan dia and eventho sakit but its true. 

Ughhhh i suckkkk i know 😖 took one day thinking about it and when i texted him that night he said he already made a move and cakap nak jadi kawan je. OMG my heart just broke into million piecesssss 😾 jangan cakap ah nangis macam mana masa tuuuuu. 

So i asked him wheter he really want it or not. Tapi serious la time tu memang dah give up. Finally i told him yang i tak boleh la dengan dia sebab yeah he's too nice and i know i tak pun. Andddd you know whatttt? to my surprise dia mcm bagi harapan tau like suruh i usaha to win back his heart. Sooo i pun try laaaa. I maximize all my efforts sampai he saw all that and one day when I asked him about it, he said tht he wants to start over with me again 😢 

I was soo happy and i literally cry kottt hahahahahha! and yeah up until now, kitaorng dah tak macam dulu asyik nak gaduh je and instead, we accept each others flaws ♥ Yeah he's the best i've ever have and im not sure what will happen to me if i lose him one day hmmm. But yeah, for now i'll appreciate him and give him the love he deserved and i wont stop doing that ♥♥♥